The girl right here is on the verge of going nuts.
Still no job and no fucking money. My car is barely holding up together.
My bf’s getting on my nerve, BIG TIME. I miss being myself. Doing what I love. Not having to ask before doing something. Spending quiet time alone with myself. I feel like I’m having a dad patronizing me. I seriously don’t know what to do with this. I think it’s actually the first time in my life I feel so screwed about a guy. One minute I love him, the other one I hate him and I wish he’d just leave. Fuuuuuuck !!
I’ve been wishing for 3 years that it would finally be ok with my son. It now is, guess what ? At 24, my youth finally get back at me ! I don’t know what got through my head having a kid. Don’t get me wrong, I love my son more than anything else in the world but damn, it’s SO hard. It’s like every fucking free time in my life is dedicated to him. I don’t go out anymore… Never. I don’t see my friends either. I don’t get to travel all around the world like I always wanted to do, I’m stuck in this fucking town.
I haven’t talk to anyone in my family for more than a year now. No news whatsoever of my lil sis, I don’t think she ever gonna speak to me again.
I don’t think there is one thing in my life right now, that goes as planned, or the way I want it to. Not a thing that I’m pleased doing.
Bref, my life suck and I’m stuck in it !